Scars form as part of the healing process after you have been physically hurt. After the healing process, you are fine and functioning again, with the scar as a little reminder of the process you went through. But what if you were psychologically hurt, worked hard to become fine and functioning again, should that process have left a scar too ?
While I am not a particular Alanis Morisette fan, the MTV Unplugged album of 1999 has been steady in my top 10 of listened albums ever since. At one point the idea just stuck; the lyrics of That I Would Be Good are a perfect representation of my process.
To tattoo this “as if I’ve just written it with a Sharpie” would be that scar for me.
That I would be good, even if I did nothing
That I would be good, even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing
That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you